Hate your body/weight?

I'm actually really liking being a bit curvy lately. Like a lot. I'm loving my body heaps. I just hate my shoulders (thanks to swimming they're a little broader than normal) buttttt obviously I can't change that. And I hate my cellulite. And I can't change that!

So yay!

Eesh. I would love to lose a good twenty pounds. :\ I would also really like to gain some muscle. I'm workin' on it!

I try not to beat myself up too much about extra weight though, as I used to be A WHOLE LOT bigger.

I need a more toned ass and my thighs too...its all gross there.

I want to lose weight and then gain weight.

If that makes any sense.



I need to get down to about my wrestling weight, another 10/15 pounds, be able to keep that, and then just start lifting and put the 15 back on in muscle form so I can look like I'm actually in shape and feel good about myself.

Oh, shut up. From all the pictures you've been posting and have been posted of you, you don't need it.

But I'm actually way out of shape especially compared to where I used to be.

Not to mention I have put on weight over the last year or so, and none of it was muscle.

I've lost weight, and look like I've gained it. I've also been out of shape since I screwed up my knee almost three years ago now..